I have to get working!

A couple weeks ago I tried my first HOT YOGA class. I have since been to about 7 classes and love them! I can tell that I am becoming more flexible and calmer. Plus you sweat so much and it help push out toxins, loooove it!

I also had my first Tough Mudder meeting tonight. Oh man, I really need to start working out harder and regularly. I'm on the Iron Works team and they have these hardcore boot camps Mondays and Saturdays that I know I'll have to drag myself there. It'll be worth it thought, I'd rather suffer now than be suffering the day of the Tough Mudder and be that person holding everyone back. That would not be cool 8(

Other than that, no news on a job at the hospital. It sucks, I really want a real job. Last night was my first night back at Smokey's and that went fine. I'm going to be doing some bartending and a lot of cooking shifts. Either way I need to be finding a way to be making money. I also applied at the People's Food Co-op so I'm hoping I get a call from them soon too. I would love to work there. I love their food and everything natural (doesn't get me sick!) 

Busy beeee.

I finished up my clinicals last Tuesday and since then I have applied at 7 different jobs. I had an interview with Biolife but they needed someone with more experience which I understand it's just I wish I could get a job in order to get that experience? So that was kind of a spirit breaker but I guess it wasn't meant to be. I'm really hoping to get a job at Gundersen Lutheran. I did all my clinicals there and at least have an idea of what I'd be doing if I got a job there. I just am going to stay focused, try my hardest and hope for the best. I want a real job so bad though!

I really need to get back in the gym and start eating right again. I haven't been working out for the past 3 weeks and I can tell. Eating cruddy and sitting around is not treating my body very nicely. I feel tired, sick and stiff. Plus I miss that me time for 2-3 hours out of my day. I think I may start going in the morning though versus going at 2 in the afternoon. Especially since it's summer time and I want to do stuff during the day, not sit around waiting to go to the gym in the middle of the day. Plus that'll force me to get up and start my day. If I get tired later on there's nothing wrong with taking a nap outside in the sunshine :)

I got some new work out shoes today too! 

My old Puma's had like NO traction left 

on them and were getting stinky. 

I got them at TJMaxx .

Originally 36.99 but I only paid $16 

since I had a gift card from Tony's mom, Pam :)

Thank youuuuu!

I have a busy week coming up. Possible job interviews, Taber's wedding is next Friday, Memorial weekend up at Lake Arbutus with the family, and making sure I'm working out. I really want to get out and go kayaking too since I only have gotten to go out once so far. In between doing all this I think I might try to apply to a back up job just in case any medical field jobs fall through too. I'm thinking Kwik Trip since I have so many hook ups. Who knows. 

I haven't updated in forever!

I have 2 days left of clinicals then I'm done & graduate!

My teacher and other phlebotomist's have told me that I'm doing awesome and am ahead of everyone else, especially since I have my own chair now basically. 

ALSO, I applied for the Clinical Laboratory Science program at Viterbo. I am going to do a year of classes at TC that can transfer to Viterbo later on so I can save money, get my GPA higher and get some more science classes taken. I'm also taking up Spanish... Apparently that will make me more appealing to future employers. Well hola to that idea!
I'm still working out and eating good but I know I can do better. The past week was a dud.
I kinda ate whatever I wanted for a couple days and now I feel really sick. I've been eating so clean and healthy that if I eat some sort of junk food (Coney Island for example) I get super sick. Lesson learned, yet again. Stomach pains and sweating? So weird, never again.
I have until June 1st to get down to 125 still. That's 25 pounds still, I'm really hoping I can do it. I should be able to... It's all for the sake of Tough Mudder! (And get my entry form paid for, oh yeah!)

Anyways I'm just plain tired. I came home from clinicals today because I felt so sick and light headed. I didn't want to be poking people and feeling that way so they said I could go home no problem.

I figure I can take a nap now, wake up, have my dad fix the light on my car, go to the gym and sauna, then home to do more cleaning and organizing :) Awesome life, I know. 

I wish I could do my own hair like these :( 

I love understanding people!

So I had been taking CTS360 Clinical for about 2 weeks. Unfortunately I saw no positive results like I was hoping for. I know I should have waited maybe longer but it was making me feel so sick and it made my body break out in hives. THANKFULLY I called Complete Nutrition today, explained my situation and they gave me all my money back in a gift card for store credit (I didn't even have my receipt!) I didn't buy anything new I just got their 10 Herbal Cleanse to help clean out whatever was left in my system of the pills. I am super appreciative that they helped me out. Now I have almost $300 I can put towards better supplements for me in a couple weeks. Yay!

 

One thing that's been bothering me lately is that I feel like I've had people getting mad at me for not answering my phone or my Facebook right away for them.... Okay, I do not live my life glued to my phone.
1. It's been gorgeous outside! That's where I've been! Riding bike and doing random stuff outside. I can't hear my phone when I'm out there so it stays inside.
2. I go to the gym for 2-3 hours of my day. My phone stays in the locker, I can't pump iron and text.
3. I bartend therefore I sleep at weird hours... You may be awake but I may be in bed... asleep... not aware of your text... at all. OR I'm so fricken tired and about to fall  asleep and you text me and I straight up ignore it.
4. You text me while I'm driving. I don't text and drive.
5. I get your text and just don't feel like answering you back because I just do not want to. Life goes on, don't get pissy at me.
Seriously is everyone to absorbed in their phone and all that, that it's the end of the world if someone doesn't answer you? Oh my gosh go get a life.

ANYWAYS, done with that. Bed time, I have to lift early tomorrow morning.

Old habits die hard, but they do die.

Here are some decisions I've over the last month:

1. Cut all pop, diet pop, energy drinks and sugary drinks out. 
     I used to drink at least 3 cans of diet coke zero day, have energy drink while I bartend and drink fruit juice all the time. I was basically drinking calories, loading up on sugar and toxins. Now that I'm not drinking pop anymore (my #1 choice of drink) I'm avoiding weight gain, ruining the enamel on my teeth and relying on the need for caffeine. This is a good article.

2. Loading up on H2O

      I make it my goal to drink a minimum of a gallon of water a day. I keep gallon jugs of cold water in my mini fridge so that its easy to access and I have a big, reusable, water bottle that I keep filled. I get bored with just water so I either add Crystal Lite (sugar free, low cal) or add fresh lemon slices to make the water test less blah. When life gives you lemons...

3. I'm back in the gym

     My friend and boss, Jen, is my work out partner. She pushes me and knows a lot of good exercises. We recently signed up for Tough Mudder in September so that's extra motivation to get in shape. I lift weights, do the machines and do an hour of hard carido on the elliptical at a high level. Also our gym offers a sauna which feels amazing after a hard work out. I feel that my muscles hurt less, my skin feels better and it gives me an hour of quiet and me time where I can read or just plain relax without anyone around! I suggest trying a sauna session!

4. I DO NOT touch Ranch anymore. 

     Seriously it seems like this world can't eat anything without ranch on it. It's loaded with fat and calories and I just got plain sick of tired of every food I ate tasting like ranch... Gross. Same goes with ketchup or any other types of dips. Food should taste better naturally not submerged in dressings. 

5. Sleep schedule

    Bartending gives me a weird sleep schedule. I used come home on average at 3 and finally get into bed at 5 am then proceed to sleep in until noon or 2 the next day. Now when I come home I go straight to my room, get ready for bed and then go to bed. I try to avoid going the computer because the blue screen glow of electronics trick your brain into staying awake and trying to function. Also instead of sleeping in any time I want, I force myself to wake up after 7-8 hours of sleep. Too much sleep is just as bad as not enough sleep. Zzzzzz...

6. Avoid anything processed. 

     A rule I live by now is "Don't eat food that my great-great-great-great grandmother couldn't recognize as food" By avoiding processed foods like hot pockets or mac-n-cheese or anything of that other crud I'm saving a crap ton of calories, fat and SODIUM. There's so much salt and preservatives in processed food. I make sure that I have fruits and veggies that are easy to get to to snack on so that I'm not tempted to snack on bad foods.  Low rate of body decay after we die because of preservatives...

That's just a few things that I've done in the past month and I definitely can feel a difference.
I just wanted to share :) 

Boomshakalaka

I started using CTS 360 Clincal a couple days ago. I used to take CTS360 before I went to Mexico and had some really good results (I went from around 168 to roughly 145-148) with working out and eating good in about 8 weeks. I have a goal weight of getting down to 125. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing but while taking is so far whenever I eat something probably not the greatest for me I feel kinda sick and also I feel like I get full really fast. I can handle that though. It's teaching me I have to chose what foods I can eat otherwise I'll suffer the consequences! 

Anyways though, I am laying low tonight because I have to go to Eau Claire tomorrow for Tony's nephew's 1st birthday party then as soon as I come back home I have to go straight to Smokey's to bartend at 8. There's a smoker for one of the softball team's we sponsor and a surprise birthday party. It's gonna be buuuusy! Which is a good thing because, why I don't know, but the bar has been deader than usual and that means I'm broker than usual and I do not like that one bit. 

 I'm hoping I make enough money in tips tomorrow too because Sunday I think I'm going to be getting my 3rd tattoo. My friend Meghan has a friend that's a really good tattoo artist and he's in town. So far I've decided that I'm going to get this fire dancer, probably about this size too, on the small of my lower back. No, not a tramp stamp. It's pretty, not trashy. DMB.

Now I have to go shopping for a quick birthday present then up to Tony's for the night :) 

I got some new shoes :)

I get them Tuesday and it's supposed to be a high of 57 so I am really hoping I get they get delivered early in the morning so that I can go out hiking somewhere...anywhere. I am just so ready for it to be warm out so that I can actually go outside and do stuff. My goal this summer is to spend the majority of the time outside. Kyaking, going on walks, rollerblading, biking, hiking, and swimming. I just want to be outside and feel sunshine on me and not be stuck inside! 

Anyways, I am almost done with my CTS360 that I used before Mexico to lose weight/get in shape so I went out and bought the newer version, CTS360 Clinical which is supposed to be even stronger. I get to start that in a couple days and hopefully I see some results. I've been lifting again but not losing weight but I think I'm at that weird point where I am losing fat but putting back on the muscle that I lost after I got back from Mexico. I can feel that I'm getting stronger and I'm really glad I'm not in as bad of shape as I thought I was!

186 days until Tough Mudder!

Tough Mudder!

I officially signed up for Tough Mudder yesterday! Jen (my boss) and I are going to do it on September 8th, 2012. I am so freaking PUMPED! It looks like it'll probably kill me but I know I can make it through it and it'll be such an accomplishment! Jen and I are starting a training program that was offered on the site along with Jen's other training that she knows and come September we're going to be ready!

No patience...

I can't wait until I have my dream job. I have this image in my head about where I want to be within the next two years and I wish I could fast forward. I am so tired all the time with my weird sleep schedule from bartending. I'm not complaining at all, I know that it'd be hard to find a job that I can work the hours I do and make the money I do. I just can't wait for the day I get to wake up, put on my scrubs and go to the hospital because I now work there. 

Anyways, I have been feeling really cruddy lately. I know I need to get back in the gym and start eating healthier. Now that I know what it's like to have a healthier life and what it's like to lose weight it makes me depressed thinking about turning into a chubby monkey again. I was in such good shape before Mexico! I wish I would have kept going when I got back and not went back to my old ways. I can only imagine what I'd look like now. Not as fluffy that's for sure. 

I need to sleep, I open the bar tomorrow morning then I'm hanging out with Tony before him and his buddies go on 'Mancation' for the weekend. Lucky!

That shhh cray.

I got punched in the face bartending tonight breaking up a fight. Not cool!
This girl was so rude to me! She threw a lemon at me she had already sucked on, yelled at me for not serving her fast enough, and yelled at me for serving a guy that was waaay ahead of her then she tried picking a fight with him!? She accused me of not using MY tip money to buy her a shot that she really didn't need because she was 'too fucking old!' Nope I just plain don't know your crazy ass. She had a pool stick in her hand when I went to go break up a fight that SHE started for grabbing some guy's jewels and dudes fiance wasn't having it...It's like what the? Come on now. Then she punches me in my face for trying to get her out the door. Apparently she's a bartender elsewhere too. Who does that!? Grow up! No, not cool at all. ANYWAYS, bitches be crazy that's all I gotta say.


PS- If it wasn't for respecting Jen and the bar and dating a cop, I would have been on that crazy lady like white on rice on a paper place in a snow storm. My face is my money maker, I am beautiful. End of story!


Haha :)

I wish I was 21 already!

Working at Smokey's, I make some pretty nice tips. I love bartending and I love the money. I've been watching Full Throttle Saloon this past season and really got on the kick to work there BUT you have to be 21 to even be considered. And that's just not for bartenders, that's for any and every position :( So I looked into working at the Cannon Run this summer. It's a big biker party in August from Wed-Sun and I heard you make crazy money there. I sent the contact person all my info asking if I could get a job there so hopefully I hear back!

I want these. They are tooooo cute. 

" I get absolutely and undeniably attached to book characters to the point where I cry and laugh with them, and physically miss them when I finish reading the book. "

I actually WANT to see my grades!?

I love knowing that I'm doing good in college, I just wish my teacher would update our grades so I could see them! I have my 3rd day of class tomorrow and we have our first test that I'm pretty sure I'll ace. Then it's up to lab to get stabbed again. Hopefully I don't get that same weird Asian lady even though she had nice veins... I like a challenge.

Also I think that instead of paying $50 a month on student loans I might as well pay $1000 a month to pay them off since I have the money. I'll have all my student loans paid off in 3 months :) Plus then I won't be getting raped by the interest rate. Then all I have to worry about debt wise is my car which, ooo still has some paying off that needs to be done.

Now that I'm getting school figured out and I have my work schedule for rest of this month I think that it's about time I get back in the gym. I'm getting fluffy! I was getting in such good shape before Mexico then I came back and stopped like an idiot. I think I'm going to start going to Yoga classes to help with my flexability and relax me. Not to mention I'll have a real reason to wear Yoga pants besides the fact that they are way more comfy that jeans :)

ANNND I put highlights back in my really dark brown hair today. I just felt frumpy and boring with all brown hair. I'm so much more used to having blonde. Plus no one recognizes me anymore! Which is lame.

Aww, wittle puppy yoga :) 

Free money.

Last night I had this older lady at the bar begging me for a job. She claimed that she only wanted X amount of hours otherwise all her unemployment and her kid's government assistance would be taken away. She has two kids, 11 & 14. She also had already spent roughly $40 on herself and others within an hour. Okay... So the whole time I'm thinking:

"If you're on government assistance WHY are you out at a bar spending your government issued money on alcohol? Do you realize how much $40 in groceries could have just bought your kids?"

Seriously that shit right there pisses me off. I am so glad that part of my paychecks go to helping people like this. (I am all for helping people who truly, 100% need it and appreciate it.  I understand that people have hard times and there are programs out there that help them BUT I'm only for them when those people that are being helped are finding ways to help themselves too.)

WIC or other food stamps for example. I see people at Festival have two transactions. One transaction has all their WIC approved foods and regular foods...then the next one is a couple bottles of liquor. So you can afford to buy your liquor but you need OUR help, OUR money to help buy your food? Yet you still have enough money to go out that night? To drink, gamble? Go shopping? I'm glad part of my paycheck just saved you enough to go buy those cute Silver jeans!

Badgercare or other health programs. When I was going to Options for my birth control that's the program I used. I appreciated it and always donated when I'd leave. I have since stopped going and canceled my Badgercare because I'm on my parents insurance. What I don't like is the girls/guys that abuse the awesome system they have set up there. Girls going in and being offered any number of birth control options, tons of useful health information and education and they still show up pregnant or infected because they weren't smart. Then who pays for the medications or other fixes? Us, out of our paychecks. Awesome, I'm glad I just paid for so-and-so's 6th pregnancy test. 

I know all of this probably sounds mean but what I'm really trying to get across is that I'm so sick and tired of people not helping themselves. People are so lazy these days. They'd rather live off the government than get a real job and work hard. I see it in bars especially. People are too broke to buy food for themselves but they can spend $5 on drinks all night but make the perfect excuse for why they can't tip me that night. That dollar or two I could have gotten out of them isn't going to make or break my night but it's just the idea that they'd rather keep it so they can keep drinking rather than throw a couple bucks my way for serving them all night. 

I am just annoyed knowing that money I work hard to earn gets taken from me to go towards people who I don't believe deserve it. I feel like people are getting the mind set of being dependent on the government and are afraid to work because their benefits will get cut. Get out and earn your own money and stop spending mine!

Well that's probably the most adorable picture ever. 

Anyways, I am having a lonely, cruddy day. I wanted to make home made pizza and have a girls night until I realized I basically have no girls for friends that A) aren't busy or B) that I really only have 1 girl friend that actually would hang out with me. So I'm just going to clean all day, organize my life, do homework and hang out with my best friend Romeo. 

I lead an awesome life. 

ALSO, IF ANYONE WORKS OUT AND 

LIKES PRE-WORKOUT DRINK MIX'S, 

I SUGGEST THIS. (It's yummy & works)

News on my Noggin!

I was in the ER a few weeks ago because I thought I was having seizures and heart palpitations. They scanned my brain and said I had a slight Chiari Malformation but nothing serious enough to worry about. I had a follow up appointment and in a week I have to go in and have an MRI and an EEG (which means I have to stay away for 24 hours straight before) They flash strobe lights in your face and I am NOT looking forward to that! Also they confirmed that Chiari Malformation was still nothing to worry about and that my episodes and bad headaches had nothing to do with it so I guess that's good news. Now they have me taking this really good migraine medication so hopefully that helps...Yay more medication.

I have work at 9 and I have no motivation at all right now to go do my hair, my make up, and find an outfit. I am comfy in my hoodie :(

Venipuncture fail!

     I'm in the phlebotomy course this spring and Wednesday was our second day of class. We were already starting to practice venipuncture and I was feeling pretty confident about it. Everyone else looked like they were doing pretty good if you consider how nervous we all were. I mean we were about to stick a needle in someone for the first time and take their blood.... Anyways, I get my partner and she's this little Asian lady, shes already hyperventilating, making weird noises and moving around. Great. So I do everything I'm supposed to:

-Apply tourniquet 
-Find a good vein
-Take of tourniquet
-Sterilize area and let it dry
-Get tube, gauze and needle prepared
-Apply tourniquet again
-Anchor vein and 'slight poke' and go in
-Put test tube into other tube and observe if there's blood.
-Observe blood flow
-Remove tourniquet

So far so good but when it came to removing the tourniquet WHILE the needle was in her arm was when the problems started. The girl jumped back, as in moving her arm backwards, as in taking her arm away from the needle that was already in her arm, as in the needle that has the air vacuumed out of it to suck the blood out of your vein. So not only was the needle no longer in her arm, either was the blood that was now spilling out of her arm. To make matters worse the rest of the air that wasn't in the tube was being sucked in making a suctioning noise (which sounded horrible) So needless to say the little Asian lady almost passed out and I looked stupid. "Technically" it was a successful draw because I did find a vein, I did get blood in the vacutainer but as for the amount of blood it would have been a fail for the lab since they need a certain amount of blood for that certain color of tube because of the additives, blah blah blah.

Needless to say that I was pretty bummed I didn't do a perfect venipuncture draw my first time but it helps knowing that it wasn't all my fault. I was able to get blood my first try and that I'd rather have bad things like this happen in class than a bad thing happen to me while I'm out on my clinicals in front of patients and doctors.

Oh how I've missed blogging.

I used to have a Xanga site but I deleted it years ago and now I've missed writing and looking back at my memories so I figured I'd start up again :)

So I was supposed to go to Lake Wazee today but with working so much I haven't been getting enough sleep and haven't had time to any laundry done. It was gorgeous all day today and I was stuck inside cleaning. On the bright side though it was a day off and I was able to go into the main bar I work at and have a burger and watch the Brewers game. Unfortunately an ex-boyfriend of mine's dad came in and was hovering by me so I ran out of that place real quick.