No patience...

I can't wait until I have my dream job. I have this image in my head about where I want to be within the next two years and I wish I could fast forward. I am so tired all the time with my weird sleep schedule from bartending. I'm not complaining at all, I know that it'd be hard to find a job that I can work the hours I do and make the money I do. I just can't wait for the day I get to wake up, put on my scrubs and go to the hospital because I now work there. 

Anyways, I have been feeling really cruddy lately. I know I need to get back in the gym and start eating healthier. Now that I know what it's like to have a healthier life and what it's like to lose weight it makes me depressed thinking about turning into a chubby monkey again. I was in such good shape before Mexico! I wish I would have kept going when I got back and not went back to my old ways. I can only imagine what I'd look like now. Not as fluffy that's for sure. 

I need to sleep, I open the bar tomorrow morning then I'm hanging out with Tony before him and his buddies go on 'Mancation' for the weekend. Lucky!